Listening to: Death Cab For Cutie
Reading: the diaries of Virginia Woolf
Drinking: green tea
Guys, you are amazing.
Thank you so much for making this happen. When I first came to DA, I was sixteen without any aspirations to create. I've never even dreamt of getting a Daily Deviation, yet here I am, with tears in my eyes (they're happy tears!) and with my third DD.
These last two years had been rough. My family moved to Germany, but I was left here, in Hungary, to start university, and to take care of my teenage sister. I was hardly a grown-up myself, but life happens, and I had to face whatever challenges were thrown my way.
Last year, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and although it made me understand things about myself I couldn't explain before, it led to some serious self-doubt. Will I ever be able to have a normal life? To have normal relationships? Am I any good as an artist, and if I am, is it only because of my illness?
I also decided to go without medications. I was told that it will be hard, I knew it will be hard, but I didn't expect it to be this hard. At the moment, I am struggling daily with my demons, while trying to keep it together, writing my thesis in applied linguistics, leading the household, and creating whenever I can.
It is hard, but I would not have it any other way.
Thank you, thank you with all my heart,