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narcissagrey

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Guys, you are amazing.

Thank you so much for making this happen. When I first came to DA, I was sixteen without any aspirations to create. I've never even dreamt of getting a Daily Deviation, yet here I am, with tears in my eyes (they're happy tears!) and with my third DD.

These last two years had been rough. My family moved to Germany, but I was left here, in Hungary, to start university, and to take care of my teenage sister. I was hardly a grown-up myself, but life happens, and I had to face whatever challenges were thrown my way.

Last year, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and although it made me understand things about myself I couldn't explain before, it led to some serious self-doubt. Will I ever be able to have a normal life? To have normal relationships? Am I any good as an artist, and if I am, is it only because of my illness?

I also decided to go without medications. I was told that it will be hard, I knew it will be hard, but I didn't expect it to be this hard. At the moment, I am struggling daily with my demons, while trying to keep it together, writing my thesis in applied linguistics, leading the household, and creating whenever I can.
It is hard, but I would not have it any other way.


Thank you, thank you with all my heart,

Gigi
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It's been a really long time since my previous journal. I left DA for a while, then I would've loved to return but life got in the way - senior year in high school will do that. I haven't slept for days BUT next to school, university and college applications I was able to find the time to continue my 365 days project on facebook www.facebook.com/media/set/?se….

It was such a tiring year, full of goodbyes farewell 

Anyway, I'm back now, with a brand new series of mine: 'Ghost Stories' :heart: spooky (yep, that escalated quickly)

I'm going to upload every piece from this series, but my first place will be facebook, so if any of you wants stay up-to-date with me, you should join me on my facebook page www.facebook.com/NarcissaGreyP…  I would be glad to have you there :happy: 

I know I should write more, but I think it's neither the time nor the place right now.

I hope you're all well, having the time of your life, making your dreams come true :blowkiss: and :wave: 

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